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张二棍:砰!好诗人应该是一个狙击手
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张二棍:砰!好诗人应该是一个狙击手

文丨yabo88登录注册网李菁

我最后的一点荣光,在诗里。最后所有的耻辱,也在诗里。

——张二棍

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大山与老羊倌

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henduonianhou,dizhiduizuantangongzhangchangchunchengweileshirenzhangergun,taxiexiaduanshi《ting,yangqunjujiaodeshengyin》:

没有比这更缓慢的时光了

它们青黄不接的一生

在山羊的唇齿间

第一次,有了咔咔的声音

草啊,那些尚在生长的草

听,你们一寸寸爬高

又一寸寸断裂

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“我曾经长久经历着这一切,一件件微不足道的小事,都像极了一根根稻草,往一个叫做“张常春”的人身上压迫着,越来越重,我感到越来越害怕,希望寻找到一个“张二棍”和我一起背负这些要命的东西。我希望这个“张二棍”能够用字句把这些稻草运送到纸上,这样我会轻松些……”

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人的下场,不必是诗的下场 / 但诗的下场,终究是一个诗人的下场

——《元神》

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在我的乡下,神仙们坐在穷人的

堂屋里,接受了粗茶淡饭。有年冬天

他们围在清冷的香案上,分食着几瓣烤红薯

而我小脚的祖母,不管他们是否乐意

就端来一盆清水,擦洗每一张瓷质的脸

然后,又为我揩净乌黑的唇角

呃,他们像是一群比我更小

更木讷的孩子,不懂得喊甜

也不懂喊冷。在乡下

神,如此朴素。

——《在乡下,神是朴素的》

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你有没有见过一个孩子

摁着自己的头,往墙上磕

我见过。在县医院

咚,咚,咚

他母亲说,让他磕吧

似乎墙疼了

他就不疼了

似乎疼痛,可以穿墙而过

我不知道他脑袋里装着

什么病。也不知道一面墙

吸纳了多少苦痛

才变得如此苍白

——《穿墙术》

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文字里的蜘蛛侠

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原谅少女。原谅洗头房里十八岁的夏天的呻吟

就是原谅她田地间佝偻的父母

和被流水线扭断胳膊的弟弟

原谅嫖客。原谅他的秃顶和旧皮鞋

就是原谅出租屋的一地烟头

和被老板斥责后的唯唯诺诺

也是原谅五金厂失业女工提前到来的

更年期。以及她在菜市场嘶哑的大嗓门

原谅窗外越擦越多的小广告

还要原谅纸上那些溃疡糜烂的字眼

这等于原谅一个三流大学的毕业生

在一个汗流浃背的下午,

靠在城管的车里,冷冷的颤抖

也等于原谅,凌晨的廉价旅馆里,

他狠狠地撕去,一页去年写下的日记

——节选自《原谅》

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